FEARING JUDGEMENT

For a while now, I’ve been on a journey to be a more creative person. Express my thoughts. Express my passions… my interests. And I find that, it’s the hardest to make videos. I’ve been trying to figure out why it’s harder for me to make video content. And I think I figured out that it relates back to my love language. My love language is time. And I don’t like wasting a lot of people’s time. So I always worry that if what I’m putting out is crappy content, I don’t want to have found out that it wasted someone’s time. 

Of course, I know that this is not a good attitude to have. I shouldn’t be making content based on other people’s opinions. I shouldn’t be expressing myself just to get glory from people that I do not know. I know I should be expressing myself because it’s something I want to do and I want to bring myself happiness. I believe that’s something we all struggle with. 

We all deal with judgement; making rules based on other people’s opinions. If there’s something that you know is going to make you happy and it’s going to bring more happiness in your life, you have to go out and do it . I think that’s something a lot of people have to focus on. Myself included. To stop making choices based on other people’s judgments. 

If there is something that is going to bring happiness in your life, you have to go and pursue that. Not think about the eyes, not think about the critique, not think about the hate, but because it’s something that feels right to you.

The biggest problem with failing to pursue a passion is all of that wasted time. You finally get around to it, and you know that, all that time that you were withdrawn, you were letting the fear consume you, and you could have been better. You could have been improving yourself. The only way that you are ever going to get better, is to actually do. Make ample use of your time. So this is that conversation to not do that anymore. 

The purpose is not to be perfect, the purpose is not to be an expert, the purpose is to just do. Ignore the judgement, and just do.